finding strength in the chaos

Well right after I had "My First Post" life turned chaotic. I don't do chaotic. I am an introverted homebody. I like simple and easy. I like to be home and I like down time. I didn't get much down time recently. Over the past couple week I spent 3 days out of town. My husband spent the 3 days in conferences. He spent a total of 8 hours in the hotel we had for 2 nights. Leila and I were on our own. Then we came home and had company for 3 days. It was mostly my husband's company so he was entertaining and I was taking care of a stuffy-nosed baby (picked up some germs from being out of town). Then a family friend passed away. Leila and I traveled 3 hours to attend the funeral services and stay with my parents for the week. I caught a very nasty 24 hour flu at my parents and was in bed very sick, while my mom and sister took care of Leila. Still recovering from being sick - made it back home for the weekend, and am planning to leave tomorrow morning for a 10 hour road trip to another funeral. My husband's 90 year old Grandmother passed away over the weekend. Between the emotional pain from loving loved ones, being sick, taking care of a sick baby, being away from my husband, and just not stopping for 2 weeks I am tired. I am drained.

After the long 2 weeks we had - my homebody self was not looking forward to getting up yesterday morning for church. As our alarms were going off I knew my husband and I were both thinking the same thing...we should just stay in bed and relax because were gonna have a busy week ahead. In the end we got up and went to church. We have been attending Harvest Bible Chapel in Rockford, IL since January of this year. After living here for 2 years and trying several churches, we are happy to call Harvest our home.

Anyway, during worship I felt the holy spirit completely come over me and refresh my spirit. I needed to be fed and revived from my tough couple weeks. I needed a renewal leading into the next week. The worship band sang the song "Oceans (Where Feet Mail Fail)" by Hillsong United. 

You call me out upon the waters

The great unknown where feet may fail

And there I find You in the mystery

In oceans deep

My faith will stand

I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise my soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand

Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name

And keep my eyes above the waves

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name

Keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in Your embrace

I am Yours and You are mine

The bolded verses I worshiped with my whole heart. I was completely aware of what I am asking of God. I am asking for him to take me deeper and stretch me to make my faith stronger! So even as I blog I am listening to this song on repeat, it is my theme song for the week ahead. I am going to be continued to be stretched and pulled out of my comfort zone, but I am asking for it now because I want to be made stronger in the presence of my Savior!!!